I took 2,4 TA per your directions and started tripping after about 45 minutes. My heartbeat was fast, I started hearing didgeridoos/drums and got some random memories. My body started feeling very heavy and ultra-sensitive, every little movement felt huge. I’m going through different slices of memories, little clips. I see tunnels, people’s faces, my grandparents’ house. Furthermore, I get to see 5 different situations where I’m a ‘miss know it all’, that got the message across ;-). I see my spiritual master floating by, and he has a very mischievous smile on his face, I can feel so much joy radiating from him and when he is almost out of side he winks at me. I start laughing and laughing…my body is moving, and I have to stop, my heartbeat is super-fast because of the movement, but I feel good. Within the laughing I felt myself, my essence, my inner pure child. I see creativity, endless creativity, endless possibilities of endless combinations, just an enormous output of creation, all the different animals, and it looks like a fountain of colorful stuff just pouring and pouring…it’s the nature of the universe.
At one point my friend comes in to check on me, and she says: “your mother is here”. I get confused and expect my mother to turn her head around the door. (my mother is 81 and has not been in my place because I live on the 3rd floor, and she can’t walk up the stairs). I really thought she was there, and I thought, this is not a good moment for her to visit me. It took a long time to realize my friend meant her mothering role.
At one point (after a few hours) I move my hand and open my eyes a bit. A gecko jumps on my forearm. I look at it and wonder where it came from, it looks very real, I have my eyes open and see the wall of my bedroom and the gecko and I think how weird, never knew I have geckos in this house.
During the whole time I am aware and can rest in this awareness and enjoy the ride. I’m very aware also of my intention to heal and keep my focus on it.
After about 5 hours I suddenly feel some discomfort in my gut, I throw up straightforward and just keep tripping. I vomit twice more over the next couple of hours.
At one point the tripping kind of stops, and it becomes empty. I’m resting in this emptiness. It takes forever. I wonder at some point when the next phase will kick in. I feel more and more clear and empty. It gets a bit boring. I want more and invite more. Nothing. At one point I must have fallen asleep.
Next day I get up, I’m still having major difficulty with walking but feel clear in my head. I go for a pee and back to bed for a few hours. Then I get up again and stay up. I’m very thirsty. I still feel a little but am out of the trip. This is about 20 hours after I took my first dose. I wonder why it’s so quick. Now, 55 hours after the first dose, I feel totally normal.
My feet feel very grounded, I feel good.
Thanks again for your support!